Before You Die

Dear Cyclamen,

Welcome to my house. You are beautiful. So unique. It’s exciting to have a non-green plant here. I have a spot all picked out for you. I took a picture to remember your unique beauty. The website I looked you up on says you are easy to care for.

But I want to warn you…I kill plants. No matter how I try, I can’t keep them alive. You are going to die a slow, painful, probably sudden death. I will either water you too much or too little.

I hope you prove me wrong and thrive here. I hope to see you live a long life.

Only time will tell.

cyclamen candace roseSincerely, Me

Not Looked For

A few months ago, these verses were read at church. They captured my imagination and I have been rolling them around in my head for a while. What awesome things from God do I miss each day because I am not looking for Him?

Isaiah 64v1-5

Isaiah 64:1-5

Oh that you would tear the heavens,
    that you would come down,
    that the mountains might quake at your presence.
As when fire kindles the brushwood,
    and the fire causes the water to boil;
Make your name known to your adversaries,
    that the nations may tremble at your presence!
When you did awesome things which we didn’t look for,
    you came down, and the mountains quaked at your presence.
For from of old men have not heard,
    nor perceived by the ear,
    nor has the eye seen a God besides you,
    who works for him who waits for him.
You meet him who rejoices and does righteousness,
    those who remember you in your ways.
Behold, you were angry, and we sinned.
    We have been in sin for a long time.
    Shall we be saved?

Save

Rain, Rain, Rain

I remember back when my cousin’s little family lived in Seattle her oldest, J1, got really tired of the rain. Katie told me that one day he was looking out the window and said, “It just keeps raining and raining and raining and raining. {sigh} And raining.” The Minneapolis weather of late has reminded me of that story. Every. single. day. Because…

It just keeps raining and raining and raining and raining. {sigh} And raining.

One this particular day in the beginning of June, it was raining while the sun was shining brightly. Happy!rain

{N.E.C.} Oh, The End of School

This last winter I had the privilege of meeting and being a part of the Gustafson family and watch the three kiddos grow and learn new things: N (four), E (three), and C (9 months).

For our last ‘Kandi Day’ we had a day-long party. Lucky us that indoor activities had also been planned, because it was rainy and blowy and lunch and playing in the park was out of the question. N requested that we watch Court Jester and E wanted Chitty Chitty Bang Bang. We finished off the finger paints, made bath paint, had chocolate cake for snack and after lunch, watched some movies, played hide and seek, and pretended to be kitties.

1N is so…so…great! She tells great stories and sings the greatest songs. N is full of great art sense and it was fun seeing how her coloring changed in these past months. Playing Queen and tag were a blast with N and also curling up for Scary Zoo Stories which could last for hours on end. We may have had a bit of a rocky start (with new-adult-telling-me-what-to-do-when-I-just-want-my-mom, who wouldn’t?), but in the end, I will miss most this little girl who is a great helper. N works hard at keeping her siblings in line, because she wants them safe. She would often pick up toys ‘to make Mom happy when she gets home’. And MY mom loved getting the flowers N would pick for her ‘for another mother’s day’.

2E was two when I first met her. She immediately warmed up to me and we snuggled on a chair and read books all morning on the days N was at preschool. E still loves books, but she likes the park even more. She tells fantastic stories and likes to do whatever N does. Her good-bye ‘sloppy wet kisses’ were a highlight of my day (three year old’s are excellent at giving them!). E really knows how to encourage people in whatever they are doing. She is good at sharing and letting others have their way and making others happy.

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C is such an easy baby to take care of – even when he’s sick! I got to watch him grow 7 teeth, learn how to scoot, crawl, pull himself up to standing, and walk around a (short) table. He loved being able to climb the steps to the kitchen while the girls were eating lunch and play under the table! C’s favorite song to fall asleep to was Baby Mine by Alison Krauss. He would do a little dance when Lauren Mann and the Fairly Odd Folk were playing.

This was my prayer over the kids for the last month of watching them. It is Lullaby by Lauren Mann and the Fairly Odd Folk.

Picture 1PS – in all the jobs I’ve had, this is the only one I cried about ending.